The Beginning, July 16

I decided to begin her training on Sunday July 16 at an early evening hour. The previous day I went out and bought some basic equipment which I felt was going to be needed. Wrist cuffs, ankle cuffs,collar with rings, blindfold and a ball gag. Let me describe my slave-to-be (she doesn't either know or realize this yet). She is white 47 years old about 5'4" tall, Italian-Spanish about 200 lbs. and is 38-30-36 with a 36C bra size, long black hair and a sweet innocent face with accompanying smile.

She has one major problem and that is that she has moderate disease. This causes her to have wide emotional swings from hour to hour, minute to minute and day to day with no predicting what will be next. She goes from nasty to tender and right back to being nasty again all without remembering. She also has fluctuation of memory problems which sometimes I'll admit are a blessing and at other times are a curse.

At present her lower left leg (from the knee down) is in a cast since she recently broke her small foot bone. So she has a low pain tolerance right now.

She says she doesn't like tongue kissing but her nipples and afterwards reactions say otherwise. She when she is in a tender and passionate mood can be very tender and passionate indeed !!

She also says she's not willing to suck me off or give head but if I coax and force her she will and then she gets into it with enthusiasm for one with little experience. I know its just a token protest on her part and usually it doesn't take much coaxing on my part. I could force her but why at this early stage should I exert that much effort ?

A thing that gets her hot and turned on is when I play first with her clit by running my finger over it a few gentle times and then I insert a finger or two in her vagina. Her nipples get hard and erect, her voice gets husky and she tongue kisses with abandon and her pain sensitivity is decreased several hundred times. Her face and upper body are in great shape as are her legs and ass but the rest are in very poor shape.

She generally either accepts what I tell her as truth or resigns herself to going along with my desires. I have decided to follow a careful regimen of firm tight bondage, without pain (FOR NOW,it can come later) with gradually increasing periods of time that she will spend being bound by me. After a few months of daily sessions of this type of 'training' (perhaps no more than 30-45 days) she should be submissive and obedient enough so that I can begin the second stage of her training which will consist of tighter and firmer bondage and a small,very light taste of first ,what I call light discipline (small taps on her ass or leg gradually increasing in force and intensity stopping just short of leaving even a quickly fading mark or sting with either my hand or riding crop.

I intend to keeping writing this journal and updating and adapting my plans for her complete training. Someday when she is well and truly trained perhaps I may either lease her out, or trade her for another slave for a few hours or perhaps I'll train her as a pony girl. I'll let my imagination and fantasy dictate my realities for the future for right now but then who knows ....?

July 18

Today, July 18th in the evening I continued the training of my slave-to-be Sanora. Naturally, she followed the expected pattern, nastiness to resignation and while in bondage first an air of resignation, then a testing of the security of the bonds holding her, then panicking, then quieting down then softly crying into the ball gag strapped tightly in her mouth. Her wrists were clipped together with a single link then that link holding her wrists clipped to a snap ring on her right ankle cuff and an off color orange ball gag strapped tightly in her pretty mouth and her slender neck enclosed by a studded tightly strapped collar with two rings (one on each side of her neck). Her left leg still being in a cast was free to move about. Due to a slight stumble she had experienced earlier in the day her wrists, which I had planned to cuff behind her back had to be cuffed in front of her. I also had planned to then snap link her free leg to her cuffed wrists using some cord I had obtained for the occasion , and the have her lay on her side for approximately 30 minutes. As it was I snap linked her wrists together and then using the same link holding her wrists together in front of her snap linked that to her right free leg while she was sitting up. For her to lay back in this position with her casted leg free and her bruised shoulder would have been more than she could have borne.

At approximately the 45 day mark I plan to use a thin butt plug on her virgin asshole and also to use my hands and a riding crop to administer mild discipline at appropriate moments. Leading up to the butt plug and riding crop stage will be longer periods of mild bondage & restraint BUT NO discipline until I feel she is psychologically ready for it. After the butt plug perhaps a thicker one with a plume tail, if I decide to train her as a pony girl. Naturally she has no idea or expectation of the pony girl training or stimulation it provides those of us who enjoy it. I intend to keep it that way for the moment due to the emotional unstable mood swings she is subject to. As to the temporary swapping or trading (NOT OVERNIGHT) of her for another slave girl she is nowhere ready either mentally or physically. The expected reactions would be those of betrayal of her by me anger swift and fierce and directed at me and then stubborn resistance which I would have to deal with by severely discipling her with a riding crop on her ass while she was in strict tight gagged bondage. All the while reassuring her that I still loved her and by her voluntarily going along with her new temporary master she would be proving and making stronger her love for me and her desire to please me. But willingly or NOT she was going to go for a 'short time' with her 'new' master and either obey him as she did me or else she would be severely punished by him and end up doing whatever he desired one way or the other and I was only trying to bring her to her senses by this punishment I would be giving her right now, and she upon her return to me would be welcomed and much loved by me and more importantly she would have learned from the experience a deeper and stronger love for me , her first and original master, as well as other new and different ways to please and delight me.

The plumage tail butt plug with an retaining rim on it to prevent its being forced out naturally ,or one with a strap to hold it in place, would be accessoried by a bridle for her head with a bit for her tongue and mouth and perhaps nipple clips along with a broad leather strap around her waist to which her hands would be clipped behind her back and above her ass so as to allow the crop and light whip free access to her ass to guide and discipline her during pony girl training sessions and possibly attaching around her waist a mock saddle with stirrups, I say mock saddle because unlike many of the books and films depicting this training, a person cannot normally support another's weight much less full weight on their backs.

I have been debating in my mind the best way to introduce her to the initial butt plug and have talked her with about it and told her approximately when I first plan to use it and as expected her reaction was first one of "NO!!!" and very nasty and loudly sounded and then after a little more coaxing on my part a sigh of resignation and acceptance and acquiesence to my plans. I expect when the first time to use it comes, a lot of resistance and struggling on her part both verbally and physically and I have been trying to decide which is better, coaxing and arguing with her for a period of time or first letting her think she has won and then putting her in tight bondage and then when she can not defend herself slip the vaseline greased plug into her asshole and buckle it up tight to a waist strap.

Mentally it is necessary for me at some time to break her spirit to fight me and I am trying to decide when it is best to attempt to do so. At present (Wednesday July 19) the reactions I am getting from her about the butt plug are ones of resignation and about my plans to physically discipline her also the same sighs of resignation and her voiced hope "of lets get this whole scene over with" with her expecting no more after this. Little does she know that her training is NOT going to last a short time as she expects but rather a LIFETIME. She also admits somewhat grudgingly that the training does turn her on to some degree and it increases her desire for me and this admission from her is the first mental step towards her complete submission to me.

After repeatedly warning her NOT to be nasty mouthed after one of our 30 minute sessions has ended and I have 'temporarily' released her from bondage, she persists still ..!.. after 4 sessions in being nasty and foul mouthed afterwards.

I think in order to cure her of this bad habit I am going to introduce her to discipline by the crop after only two weeks of initial training. In other words sometime next week.

I will warn her that if she persists in being foul mouthed and nasty either before, during or after a session I will increase her time that she will have to spend in being gagged and bound and I will punish her during the session with the crop for her transgressions of the previous day or days. I will inform her at the beginning of the session what punishment she has merited for her previous' days sins.

Hopefully this will cure her of this habit quickly and permanently. Seconds thoughts.....perhaps I'm asking too much of her, after all this has only been her fourth session ?......

Addendum...shortly after the Wednesday session ended (7/19) I explained to her that I could NOT let her sins go unpunished any longer and I was going to discipline her right then and now.

I ordered her to go into the room where we held our earlier evenings training session and strip naked and wait for me to enter the room and put her in bondage again and administer her her justly deserved spanking. I informed her that I had decided she merited 20 spanks on her ass cheeks for her earlier sins and I then proceeded to put her wrists in cuffs and put her right ankle in a cuff and also proceeded to gag her with the 'hated' off color orange ball gag, but I omitted her collar this time.

I clipped her wrists together with a snap ring and then attached the snap ring to the right ankle cuff (her left leg is still in a cast) with a length of rope I had handy for just such an occasion. I then proceeded to lay her down on her left side and then gave her twenty hard smacks on her ass cheeks with my hand pausing in between strokes (which I counted off for her since she was gagged) to rub and stimulate and massage each cheek. At about the tenth stroke she started to sob and then cry and then quickly dried her tears (mentally) but on the twentieth stroke she gave out with a short muted high pitched "OOOOOOH" gasp of pain. I then released her and told her that I would be counting her sins from tonight on and that as soon her leg was free from the cast I would resume punishing her but that tonight I simply could NOT let her go unpunished anymore and I had to do what

I did for her own good. She seems for now to have accepted the fact that I will punish her and is willing , on the surface at least,to accept the punishments by my hand ... we shall see in the future about the riding crop.. and is apparently truly sorry for arousing my anger with her. We shall see how she behaves in the future especially about the butt plug.

July 23

The training of Sanora is continuing at an accelerated pace due to the fact that she has persisted in being foul mouthed and nasty. I have reached a decision and that is to train her as a pony girl and also have decided to have her service others when I so desire and deem it necessary to remind her of her place.

Psychologically she is even more submissive than before since she now admits to being turned on by the sessions and is apparently more than ever eager to please me. I purchased yester day a broad leather strap with o rings to strap around her waist and a thin butt plug and a long flexible riding whip. A crop I will purchase later. As a sign of her submission to me I have made her agree to insert the plug in herself as well as agreeing to accept whatever number of strokes I deem necessary to give her with the whip across her ass cheeks for her transgressions.

She is almost but not quite yet ready to have her spirit broken once and for all. From experience in psychology I know that the last of her spirits to fight me are going to take the longest to break. She thinks the strokes are for her sins and does NOT suspect that they are really to break her spirit. The same is also true of the butt plug. More stringent bondage sessions and more 'stimulations' with the whip are going to be necessary before she will have reached the point of instant unquestioning obedience to me and my desires. Some of the bondage sessions will involve clipping her wrists together and then clipping her ankles together (after her cast comes off her left leg) and then clipping legs and feet together all the while with the hated off color orange ball gag strapped tightly in her mouth and while she is wearing a blindfold. The blindfold terrifies her and for this reason I am going to begin using it again tonite to gradually ease her into getting used to it.

July 24

She has come full circle psychologically again. She now freely admits to both wanting the sessions and to being punished by me. She also admits that the sessions arouse within her feelings of 'being special' and newly felt pleasurable desires.

It is perfectly normal for this cycle to occur again and again only it should happen with increasing frequency until it comes to the forefront when she is first aroused. In other words when she is first aroused (by however means or whatever means) she should then come to both want and expect bondage and also want and expect discipline. It has never been nor will it ever be my intention to permanently disfigure,scar or maim her. Discipline her yes, raise a few welts with a crop yes, stripe her ass yes but never maim,scar or disfigure her with the possible exception of a brand on her left cheek with my initials but then only with her freely given full knowledge of the consequences consent. All the others are for psychological conditioning.